I was waiting for to release these two records until
1) Some nice man or woman offered me a few million (pounds preferably, euros next or US Doll-hairs last! -)
2) More people discovered all the other 7 albums I uploaded to Gordotronic.com
Since neither of that-particular-version of my Phantom Lake phantasy has happened, I decided to post them on this
mostly hidden and unpublicized Analog Poodle Bandcamp page cuz actually one manager, and one small record company expressed
interest in "hearing them"! I priced them at 15bucks to 'discourage those members of the public that weren't ordained clergy!'
to download them... but if you choose to anyway-- THANK YOU!
I had been experiencing a painful writer's block, artists block for almost ten years-- in the form of being afraid/hesitant to actually sit down and try making a new song! To be honest, I wrote The Big Stuff and
Free To Lie in London in 2003 and 4, and one rocker called A Balanced Excess here in Berlin February 2010! The last normal burst of writing and channeling my writerly spirit was around Christmas 2000, when one of my own favorite creations I Lick The Moog album was revealed and recorded in a short time at my then studio Transporterraum in the East Village of Manhattan under the sidewalk, under the Methadone clinic on 2nd Street and Avenue A.
THAT was right when my "producing music for other people career" took off, and something inside my creative spirit
snapped: a fear that my own music "wasn't good enough", and that the closest I could come to being an artist was to work hard on other people's music and occasionally play and sing parts on their records!
After all, producing was paying my bills and my own songs- about 1100 of them, were all but unheard except by me..
and I really, certainly enjoyed them! So they all sat on my shelf-- until my 6 year plan to build the Gordotronic website was finalized last Winter.
I am overjoyed to be back writing music, and this time its really fun and only for the enjoyment and blessing of how it feels to open the creative channel and let inspiration come into and through me, with no real
judging of whether its "appropriate for my style" or "can I sell it to an A+R person?" or "will people download it?, or
steal it, or buy it or even like it?!"